Friday, 2 December 2011

Melbourne Sick

It's been the longest time since I wrote a post. I have mixed feelings about putting down my feelings for the public to read. I think "who knows who's reading this?" I could be divulging deep secrets to frenemies, or ruining the impression of future business opportunities.

Either way, I think writing is a healthy outlet. At least I'm not out there taking out my frustrations on alcohol (tempting as it may be). Perhaps writing it all out may provide some epiphany that solves all my problems (wishful thinking)

I have left Melbourne for 1 and a half months. In many ways, it feels like waking up from a dream after a coma. Like the story lines in most Korean drama, I do feel lost and confused. The time that has passed causes everyone to move on. The question then is who bothered to wait for you?

Many of us would like to think that friends will always be there,  Family will always understand you and your place here is part of your destiny.

What happens if you wake to find that it's not true? Should we blame those who have moved on? Do you seek to re-established lost ground...or do you re-place yourself, and the world around you with yet a new one.

For now I hope to be able to at least create a make shift emotional support system from out of touch old friends. A truly humbling experience and not one I enjoy. They say make the best of what you have.

I think I sometimes want the best of what I had.

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