Today i explained life pretty simply to my friend.

Everyone is here to piece together their own puzzle.
Different people at different times hold the pieces of our puzzle.
We simply have to listen when we feel the call, the call of destiny, the call of each of our puzzle piece.
When we learn the lesson from those sent to us, friends we were destined to meet, soul-mates that touch our lives, the puzzle fits. Our lives become that much more clearer.

Good luck with your puzzle :)

The first time my mom gives advice that I actually wanna remember

God did create us with brain and free choice. And it is utmost important to have ability to think wisely in Decision making. In fact I just read a book on How to Train your child to think.
It is a lot to do with our habits and attitude to be good decision makers.
The book gives us only 2 scenarios : When you want to think and When you do not want to...
When you want to for a specific decison like getting a right job. Then use the Thinking Caps. 1st, put on the Blue Cap which is on What is The Purpose and What is the 4 main Priorities. Better also to have the First Important Priority. 2nd , put on the Red Cap= What do I feel on this job? Emotions, 3rd, put on the Black cap= Caution, Is this Ok to go ahead?
4th, Put on the Green Cap= Any Benefits? Or any advantage on taking this job up to overcome the caution of Black cap.
5th, Put back Red cap= What do I feel now?
LAYCHI
12:46
If the decision is something you do Not want to make, then 1st, put on Red cap= Emotion, Do I have 3 emotions ie Fear, Greed and Laziness in this decision? 2nd Put on the Yellow Cap= Any Plus Point if I overcome the 3 Emotions. Weigh the Pros. Then 3rd, Put on Black Cap = Caution. Anything that is Cons or Minus on this decision. 4th, Back to Red Cap= Emotions, Do I still feel same or otherwise.

Wow suddenly my mom sounds so smart. It's not that I don't usually listen, just that over the internet, and in her emails, usually she says things that sound more like this:

11:11:59 PM LAYCHI: Not to worry about points too much. God has open the door for you to be in Australia and has seen you through financially till now. Trust in the Lord to be Jehovah Jireh Our Lord Provider. I trust that He will give you favor from Himself and from Immigration Dept and also your interviewers for a job where he will establish the works of your hands. Amen.

Sounds like God is just having my interest at heart and every one should just bend over backwards for me. Plus my mom also usually say stuff like :

11:12:41 PM Roycexegesis: My left eye is twitching
11:12:49 PM Roycexegesis: did anyone in our family die?

11:15:26 PM LAYCHI: No one died but today is Pui Yee's wedding. Ah Ma and Pa is now attending the wedding dinner in KL. Me and girl at home on net and studying.

Haha, I love how she is just never aware that she says the bitchiest things in the world without thinking.  I love her! It's a natural talent I tell you.

As my mom says "Call me Laychi the Sweet" (hand flourishes as if making a grand statement and hand goes on hips.)

Love my mom

This is a reverse chronological order of the Life of Royce, in 400 posts.
It's interesting how I've unintentionally documented my life here for all to see for so many years.
I remember when blogging first became a trend, I just thought it was something cool people did to show that you're tech-savvy.

Years later, I realize this is my history book. If I die, this would probably be revisited by those left behind.

Funny how we all say left behind. As if, we're all so sure that we're heading somewhere first, and then others will eventually follow.

Like I just read, "Reality is but a collective hunch". We all simply guessing at what 'Is' and what 'Will be'.
I hate it when I get into that philosophical impasse.


Today I made a super yummy meal by accident, So I am noting it down for future reference.


The Superb Salmon Soup :
Ingredients-

• half a fillet of salmon
• a handful of spinach
• sliced truss tomatoes
• 2 pork & mushroom balls
• one clove of shallot
• sliced swiss mushrooms
• pickled japanese ginger
• bits of turkey spam

Toss it all in a 13 or 15 inch pot and bring to boil
(I know it doesn't sound very appetizing, but HellO! I'm Royce. I know yummy when I taste it)

Flavouring-

• All Spice
• Soy Sauce
• Oyster Sauce
• Salt

Then stir and eat.

So simple. So tasty. Salivate.
Benefits : It heats up the body so prepare for a good sweat. It rids you of gas/wind because of the ginger; so not a very polite meal to have around guests. lol.


Operation dream

Last night I had another dream, I was on the operating table, looking at my open chest with the heart pumping in the middle. The surgeon was staring maniacally at my heart, as if shooting lasers with her crazy eyes.


I zoomed in on my heart, and saw that it was translucent. It's skin was the opaque layer of a jellyfish skin with bits of onyx in it. A tear in my heart appeared but did not bleed. Instead, my heart expanded and sprouted out of my chest.

The surgeon whose face was behind the surgical mask squinted hard, lifted her palms towards the operating table. Out of her hands shot many tiny silver pellets in slow motion. Like the 'Matrix', the little bullets headed for my sliced chest.

In panic, my outer self stretched out a hand in front of the pellets and held them in the air. With a very real pressure, I could feel myself push the air, pellets and kinetic force back towards the surgeon. The pellets move away and sped up towards the surgeons terrified eyes.

The silver pellet was reflected in the close up view of her eyes as her iris dilated in fear.
I woke up to the musty morning of Melbourne.

Wow my sketches remind me of Heroes- Isaac Mendez, the precognitive artist. I believe me and my sister have a little bit of that.

Or perhaps it's part of the whole Revelations chapter.

And it shall come to pass afterward, [that] I will pour out my spirit upon all flesh; and your sons and your daughters shall prophesy, your old men shall dream dreams, your young men shall see visions: And also upon the servants and upon the handmaids in those days will I pour out my spirit.

Never thought I'd quote scripture on my blog. But this is the way the bible probably started out as, before it was translated, reduced and reiterated into almost ridiculously accurate verses.
Verses that is still considered The Word of God by Christians today, as my Bible Knowledge teacher used to say " As Christians, for all debates on Christianity, we take the bible as the final word and the highest authority."

Therefore verses such as these remain our highest authority-
Deuteronomy 22:11

Do not wear clothes of wool and linen woven together

And Deuteronomy 22:12

Make tassels on the four corners of the cloak you wear

Hurry! Go make cloaks of only pure wool or linen and make tassels on the four corners of the cloak! Thou shalt not commit anymore fashion sins anymore!


Haha, I really have issues with all these religious stuff.
That is why life should be simple and I should just sketch pretty women.

As the dream consumes me, My mind opens. When I go under, reality is suspended.

I stood in front of the white wall station of the Zoo. The colours were washed out, like someone had bleached my vision.

My family walked with me to the gates of the guard house. They went through, as the guard with the beady eyes looked at me, frowning, staring, he shut the gates on me as I tried to step through. The gates slammed into my face and I was caught on the border.

That was when I knew something was wrong with the Zoo.
*Flash*

I was walking into the room where all visitors had to stay a night before they could enter the Zoo. It had a window that looked out into the compound. The Savannah winds blew dust against the windows. There was no signs of life at all for a zoo.
*Flash*

My mom ran in the next morning, panicking that she'd forgotten something. Whatever it was, I looked up at the ceiling, and there was a hole in the roof. I simply told her, I could get it. I just knew it at that moment, I could fly to wherever I wanted.

I rose out of the building like it was completely natural. Rushing through the city with no horizon. I could not see a single inch of sky. I needed to see the sky. I wasn't flying high enough. Everytime I tried to go higher, there was another glass building in my vision. I realised that my imagination wasn't strong enough. I couldn't imagine blue skies and a horizon!

With that, the buildings gave way. and all I saw was a skyline of blue. The dark buzzing blue of a blank computer screen. The glass of the buildings showed me flying full speed, but in slow motion. I was swathed in billowing white cloth and the reflection was an absolutely beautiful lady.

*Flash*

I was back in the room, with the object retrieved, but nobody was there. There was something wrong here. I looked at the neatly manicured sheets and the laundered towels.; the neat pillows and the fake air of welcome. It was a trap for everyone who came to the Zoo. That's why everyone had to stay overnight. No one was supposed to actually get into the Zoo.

I looked behind me at the doorway. I hear someone call me out. I walked out and then at the doorway is a doll. A doll wearing something frilly and old. Then its head expands and contracts and opens its fangs. mouth. Teeth. Fangs. It screams at me! The eyes black holes of shadows, swirling spinning. It wants to eat me.

I stepped back in fear. and the fear expanded in my throat. It was a real demon! This was a dream. My dream, and what I think is real , becomes real. I knew I was talking directly to the demon through the dream, and the demon was angry.

I couldn't let this demon win. I had enough of it. I looked it straight in the eyes. It screamed at me. I shouted "That is enough! No more!" hands shot out of the ground to hold it in place. Fangs with spit shot at me, but it shrank a little. "You are but a demon! You have no power over me, no right to torture me. I am not afraid!"

*flash*

This is perfect for RMIT students, and whoever who wants to live in the city.
But you have to act fast as applications are pouring in.

Price $335.00 Per Week / 1452 per Month Location Melbourne Melbourne City Central Business District Bedrooms (#) 1 bedroom Dwelling Type Apartment Bathrooms (#) 1 bathroom Parking None

1 Bedroom apartment for rent - available for short term lease (6 months)
Serviced Apartments Nova Stargate Hotel
http://www.novastargate.com.au/
718/118 Franklin Street corner of Elizabeth Street.

• Fully Furnished
• Air Conditioned/Heater
• Toilet with Bathtub
• Daily cleaning service available
• Communal Laundry available
• Right Next to Victoria Market!
• One block away from RMIT University and 8mins walk to Melb Uni
• 2 minutes from tram stop. and 24 hour 7-Eleven
• 1 block from Melbourne Central
  
• opposite late night asian grocery store

1452 per calender month or 335 P/W
Available from 23rd November 2009, 6 months contract
Inspection starting from 6th November 2009 by appointment.

I am only moving out because of family matters and have enjoyed living close to RMIT and Vic market. A great option for students.

For inspection, please email me, Royce : rainaire@hotmail.com
include name,contact number, preferred date and time of inspection

For more information and PICTURES : this is the Gumtree ad I developed -

My mom is trying to be very hip and cool nowadays. Using Msn and all, keep disturbing m on MSN.
This is how it went :
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LAYCHI wants your attention!

Roycexegesis
hi

LAYCHI
Are you on and alive?
Just came back from a neighbour's house, watching a Christian DVD

Roycexegesis
8:04
i feel barely alive
lecturer scolded me
because I couldnt meet his deadline
I didnt sleep whole night last night
trying to rush

LAYCHI
8:05
I know it is tough to want to go through this final lap. However remember not to give up. After all you have only a short month or so to call yourself a n honors Degree Graduate. Keep with it.

Roycexegesis
8:05
haih, this course is such a regretful one
I know I learnt a lot
but I am so frustrated with the expected outcome
15000 word thesis
its like. such a stupid thing

LAYCHI
8:06
No pain, No gain, they say.

Roycexegesis
8:06
they should make it by monthly checkup

LAYCHI
8:07
Try to see the good side of it.
Like you are the cream of the crops.

Roycexegesis
8:07
the cream is going to spoil
rotting away
Chau liau
anyway, I stil have to write

LAYCHI
8:08
The Lord helped you to fulfill another year for a PR status
When are you going to come back to malaysia?
Try to either join us to Guangzhou or do not come back during 8th jan to 13th jan.
However you can be with ah ma then

Roycexegesis
8:12
so that's the period that you're going to guang zhou?

LAYCHI
8:13
yes i already email you. it is actually 14 Tan members to celebrate aunt Siew Eng's 60th birthday there

Roycexegesis
8:15
omg, too many old ppl
lol
but will my trip be paid for?
or do I have to pay myself>?
It would be useful as I know a bit of Mandarin, so i can at least be ur translator

LAYCHI
8:17
Rose, Sylvie, Tony also going along. Flight and hotel will be paid for. others on your own

Roycexegesis
8:17
Sylvie and Tony isnt even preteen
probably have to babysit somemore!
omg
will the trip be expensive?

LAYCHI
8:18
Our flight is bought at early promotion rate. Maybe you should go and visit Shanghai instead (wah such unkind things)

Roycexegesis
8:18
Yeah tat sounds like a better option

LAYCHI
8:19
Adeline has a place you can bunk in - she is staying with the English/scot condo in Shanghai
They are getting married in Tropicana in July 2010

Roycexegesis
8:20
wow
ok cool

LAYCHI
8:20
The advertsing world is really quite advance and lucrative.

Roycexegesis
8:20
u said the pui yee oso?
but shes my age

LAYCHI
8:20
yes, to her old flame -met in her hotel job

Roycexegesis
8:21
ha? she had a job?
so weird though
I think she's too young to marry

LAYCHI
8:21
May God bless her. I will not attend Pui Yee's wedding as Rose will be in SPM

Roycexegesis
8:22
YUCk! ahahah such a poor reason
sorry, i cant attend ur wedding as my daughter is going for exam
which although does not involve me studying for her, is still going to take up every day

LAYCHI
I know. But i am not her close aunty. Ah ma n pa going only

Roycexegesis
8:22
oh yeah
so wweird, she had this skin problem , and had the naughty brother
than , suddenly she's getting married
oh well, Ah ma said her boyfren is ugly
ahahaa

LAYCHI
8:23
I guess they will have to go through their own times n way
Rose said she is lucky she can find her husband as her voice is very high pitch n  annoying

Roycexegesis
8:25
I agree with Rose.
and I guess, she's just going to be a housewife
so nothing great about it

LAYCHI
Back to Shanghai- please email to adeline and check when you can visit
She will be b ack here to do training for aunt Saw Bee in Nov
Also get pa to fix you to meet some corporate contacts there

Roycexegesis
but I only have a window of until March, where I Have to apply for PR, otherwise get kicked out of Australia

LAYCHI
I meant just a trip to open your eyes to China
God knows that advertising can be done round the world but from a fix place of your own
large insane ovaries

Roycexegesis
yeah, but I will need a job at an agency as well. and usually the clients are local as well. unless i'm already working for a high end international brand

LAYCHI
by way the last phrase is your insecure sis

Roycexegesis
yuck. what is that? siau liau

LAYCHI
she is bored and studies when she can
now raining and waiting to go gym
God knows what He has in store for us

Roycexegesis
8:32
at the gym?

LAYCHI
8:33
Believe and Conceive that he has given you talents according to your ability

Roycexegesis
8:33
what ? with exercise?

LAYCHI
8:33
So go out and be a blessing in the industry He wants you in and open the doors for you. Amen
Just do your best in the last project essay n then only go next step

Roycexegesis
8:35
oh ur praying
cheh

LAYCHI
8:39
Prayer can move mountains and has
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Haiyooo, this Mother-Son convo is sooo fail.

Royce Loves this new series:

A divorced woman whose name is Christine tries to start a new life when she finds her husband and his new girlfriend, Also Christine, making out in the car park of her son's school.
This effectively makes the girlfriend, the New Christine, and her,....the Old Christine.




This is a Link to Tudou.com where you can watch tons of series online. Stream it!
http://so.tudou.com/isearch/the%20new%20adventures%20of%20old%20christine/

 


 

 

Royce 
Royce Is disappointed with this series:

The Dresden Files
 

A middle aged detective is registered in the Yellow pages as a Wizard. He has a dead warlock that lives in a skull and he simply CSI's magical crime scenes.
His powers aren't even cool! it's just basic parlour tricks because for some reason, he cannot reveal "real" Magick even though he is Fricking REGISTERED as a WIZARD in The bloody Yellow Pages.

WTH? it's just not even worth it.

My next desired review : True Blood.

What do you do when you head home with a friend that's staying over, You've drank alcohol non stop for near 12 hours, and you realise you've lost you're house keys?


You call yourself Royce, that's what.


This is a no bullshit sequel to my personal "Series of Unfortunate Event's". Lemony Snicket ain't got no shit on me, I can tell you that.


The breezy Saturday started with a clumsy 'stoned' awakening from heading out with Rach the nite before. It was Rika's project event that's sponsored by the Student Union. So FREE ALCOHOL

Workshop Bar was the setting. We were assembled like Alcoholics Anonymous shown on American TV, except we weren't trying to give up our addiction.
I come from a line of not-so-distinguished drinkers. I had my reputation to keep and wasted no time in getting my fill of Cider and cocktails.
The air was merry, people were bubbly and the flow kept coming.

It was a melbourne orienting event for the Japanese and Indonesian students of RMIT. Meeting new people from different cultures always makes me excited. The more you learn about who they are as a person, the more you learn about yourself and your identity. You know what separates you from everyone else.

I'm such self-glorifying ass sometimes.


Anyway, Sam and Aaron went to my place to change whilst the rest had dinner at Coconut House (good chicken rice btw) . Then, I headed back home to drop some stuff before heading to the party.
It was a surprise birthday for Mickey.


At Mickey's birthday, we had Space Cakes!! some MORE drinks and played poker whilst she was on her way home.

They sounded the alarm. She approaches. The cards were swept aside, shoes thrown awkwardly under a carpet and we hid in her room as she took the elevator.
We jumped out as soon as she approached the door and I shouted "Happy Mooncake Festival!" (cuz it was!) Mid-Autumn festival is what some call it.
She had the surprise.

Merry making continued with a game of King's Cup/Devil's Deck/Circle Of Drunkards. It was superbly fun.

Lost Keys
I then headed home with Raine, and to my surprise, I Lost My Keys!!! I realised I must have either dropped it at the party, or left it inside the house when I dropped stuff off at dinner!
It was impossible to get a locksmith at the time. I returned to the scene of the crime.
Mickey's house.Nope, My keys were unfortunately not there. So I had more Space cakes to calm down, then me and Raine crashed at Mickey's House.

The Next Morning,

I woke up to a Lazy Sunday, I called several locksmiths to find out the price range.

Getting a Locksmith in Melbourne on the weekends = 150$$ OMG! and I'm already broke!
there was no choice.And All he did was spin spin, screw screw and the door opened! I forked out the money, but Joe's space cakes were calming enough that I didn't make much of a fuss.

The rest of the day blurred by....


Monday Morning

I came back from a group meeting to realise there was a note stuck on my door
It reads

" Your card will be de-activated for illegally parking in a hotel green lot. If you have a problem, you should call the new building supervisor because the blue car belongs to him. - Tony"

WHAT THE FORNICATION is that? I don't even have a Pharquing car! "if you have a problem, call the building supervisor cause the blue car belongs to him." You Bet your ass I have a problem!! and what has his blue car have to do with me? What bull shit is this!? First I get a 1500 dollar bill and now a threat to deactivate my card after i just paid 150$ to get into my own house! this is just fucked up!

I called the manager alright. Turns out, it was my landlords car and I could just ignore it.

Don't do scary shit like that to innocent people! okay! we have 15000 word essays to worry about.


Later that night, the bad luck streak decides to give me a break...and strike Sammie!
Her laptop was functioning normally one minute. and then Adobe crashed and corrupted!
Then Photshop had a seizure.

Then comes....

The BLUE SCREEN OF DEATH!
Or it might have been a bitchier version, since everything is out to get us now.

Might have been something like this....
The computer reports that it ran into an error while already loading a previous error. And a flamboyant bitchy paper clip to laugh at your misfortunes. "just passing by... but .. oh! hey looks like you're having an error. How entertaining."



Watch out for more Bad Luck Streak Reports.
Poor Unfortunate Royce.

Fasten your seatbelts guys.
Royce is in for a bumpy ride.

Almost every year, the stars align to bring me....divinely bad luck.

I am not even kidding how bad this is. Those who have known me for a long time will know what I am talking about.
It is a phenomenon that follows me due to the whole ChanceBender gift/curse I am given.
Refer to my Past post - If you'd like CHANCEBENDER post
The bad luck streaks come with a theme sometimes. The ones that I remember and recorded in my diary are :

1. The 'Missing' Streak - This happened during Form 1 in Secondary school. I remembered that I just couldn't seem to find so many things.

• My house keys went missing
• my pencil box along with the stationery somehow fell out of my bag.
• My homework.
• My personal diary was missing, which I later found stolen by the crazy/down syndrome boy that sat next to me.
• 
• My actual teenage diary lol. I got it as a gift when I was 12 ok, and only used it at 15
  
• I was MIS-takenly punished for someone else's MIStake.
  

2. The Car Streak - This was a random series of vehicle related disasters when my little Kancil was in suicide mode. Refer to SUFEER post!

• I remember rushing to class to meet my project deadline and avoid failing,only to have my car breakdown in the middle of the road. I simply turned my hazard lights on and made a run for it.
  
• I received a Summons/Saman two days in a row, one was for a parking ticket that i had PAID for, but flipped over when I shut the door!
• I woke up half an hour late for an exam, drove halfway to realize I left my handphone at home, drove back for it, received a flat tyre right in front of the house, spent another half an hour changing the car tyre....found that my spare tyre was ALSO a flat. pushed it to the nearest car repair centre, found several more problems with the car, asked my mom to drive over with 200 bucks to pay for the bill, and drove there to spend another 30 mins looking for a car park. I was obviously late for the exam, and I don't know why I bothered anyway.
• Car almost got repossesed
  
• The car brokedown again on the way to lunch with Shaza and JT.
• When I went to pay my summons, I almost received another one while crossing lanes with a policeman on a motorbike. 'Luckily' he let it pass.
• 
  
  

3. The Relationship Streak - This was around the time I was in the second year of college.

• I got into a real bad fight with Winson and didn't speak to him for months - over beauty products...
• Then I had an explosion with Rachell which sparked a war of words - over a blog comment...
• I emotionally exploded and threw a tantrum in front of my mother,grandmother, and aunt - over balancing an account book.

It was like, nothing I did or say could be correctly interpreted and everyone just had to get on my nerves. Perhaps I was having some kind of severe hormonal imbalance... looking back, I still don't understand it.

This year seems like one big bad luck streak on its own. Moving house four times, The honours year pressure and fear of death thing.
However, for some reason it seems to have re-intensified in the last week. I am not going to get into the personal stuff of it. But so far :

• Throwing my 15000 word draft thesis out the window because I've been using the wrong jargon.
  
• The bad timing for renewing my student visa and medical checkup. I have to get an extension for the application deadline.
• That 1500 dollar gas bill a few posts ago, What the Farge is that? seriously?!
• I'm late for rent, and I'm financially insecure.
• I've just asked my parents for the rent, they said they'd pass through a friend of theirs, who's coming down to Melbourne today. This morning, I received an SMS from them saying that same uncle collapsed on the way to the airport, and is now at the hospital?! WTH!?

Somehow, I have a feeling that the bad luck streak is not over...and there is more to come.

A tortured and nervous Royce.

I just got of the phone with my mom.
It feels horrible. I feel like I'm disowned.

Apparently I will only be financed til the end of the year.
Knowing this makes me feel like I will be living on the streets from 2010 onwards.

My parents are the type that throws you into the deep end and hopes you grow gills.


Stress stress.

cold sweat.

Guess my plans for picking berries on the farm isnt such a great financial decision after all.

For the Special someone out there,far away from me, You know who you are.



I like the cut scenes in the middle. it reminds me of the times together.

My reply to my friend, Derrick's very open and insightful musings. It is not like him to be so frank, but I like it.

My reply:

I consider myself an explorer of both thought patterns. When I was in Primary School till mid of Secondary, I was an observer that internalized what I saw and rationalized. Since then till Last year, I’ve been the one who acts, externalized emotions and downsized thought.
In both sense, drama is omnipresent. It is simply the paradigm from which you see it. When you look out for something, the more often you find it.
I doubt that there is a stable balance to anything. I think in nature and in the basic pattern of the universe; it is always more of a wave. A flux between two extremes that continually repeats. Change is the only constant.
Its like standing on a boat out at sea. The harder you try to hold your stance, the more likely you will fall. It you allow yourself to sway to the rhythm, you’ll have a better ‘balance’.
Just a Thought~ Royce.

I know my surname is really common. But I've never brought myself to wiki it till now.
Who new it was also just as common in Vietnam? and 5th most common surname in China!

WIKI:

Chén (traditional Chinese: 陳; simplified Chinese: 陈; pinyin: Chén; Wade-Giles: Ch'en) is one of the most common Chinese family names. It ranks at the 5th most popular surname in Mainland China and the most popular surname in Singapore and Taiwan. Chen is also the most common family name in Guangdong, Zhejiang, Fujian (spelled Tan or Chin in Singapore and Malaysia), Hong Kong (spelt Chan in Hong Kong) and Macau. It is usually romanised as Chan in Cantonese, and sometimes as Chun. In Min (including dialects of Chaozhou (Teochow), Hainan, Fujian, and Taiwan), the name is pronounced Tan. In Hakka and Toisan, the name is spelled and pronounced as Chin. Some other Romanisations include Zen (from Wu), Ding and Chern

In Vietnam, this surname is written in Quoc Ngu as Trần, and is the second most popular Vietnamese surname, accounting for 11% of the population,^[1] after the surname Nguyễn (38.4%).

Chen is also common transliteration of the Hebrew name, חן, often found in Israel. It is pronounced [xɛn], and means grace or favour.[citation ne

For those of you who don't know. I am not very proud of my chinese name as it is pretty old school for modern terms. However, I was named with Royce on my birth cert, unlike many chinese friends I know who simply added an english name to seem posh or something. lol

Anyway, my full chinese name is
陈忠锦

feels like my secret name or something. It's weird to acknowledge this dislocated part of my ancestry. Like a phantom limb, it's something you can't see but feel sometimes. It is part of your identity by virtue of being i your birth certificate and passport. But even those are written in the its phonic form, which I am not going to reveal here.

The middle part of my name means Loyalty. which to a certain degree, I believe to be very much so.

The last part however, has always baffled me. Not so much as to what it means exactly... but what was my grandmother thinking when she chose that character....

锦

1. brocade, tapestry
2. embroidered

陈=

1. exhibit, display
2. plead
3. (archaic) ancient
4. A surname

My name means Ancient/Displayed Loyal Tapestry. WTH.
Nvm, I'll make it sound glam.

My grandmother believes that each person is like a thread. All our lives are interwoven and connected. Together we create this Ancient, neverending (loyal) tapestry of Life.
Hence my name.

Wow, aren't I good at bull shitting.

I can't stop the way fate loves throwing strange and unusual punishment
Look at my recent bill that I've received from AGL (Australian Gas and Lighting)

I received a gas bill for a whopping 1540.08 Aussie dollar!

What on earth happened in my unit to cost 1540$ worth of gas used? Have I been breathing gas and slowly dying for the past 2 months?

And the Ironic highlight of the story.


I am using an electric stove.

Yes people, I don't even use gas. Yet, i am charged a thousand five hundred for my non-existent amenity. Bloody bastards.

I called the help hotline immediately, but apparently they don't support the use of foreign work slaves and child labor, so there was no one to pick up my call on the weekends. I had to stress about it for 2 full days before I could call in.

They finally verified that they billed me for the whole BUILDING'S use of gas. WTH! can we say it with me. WAT THE HELLL! AGL! WTH! AGL! WTH!

They had to put me on hold twice before the issue was finally resolved. I reckon they should give me a 1500 dollars worth of credit and let me use my electricity till kingdom come.


Sigh, this must be karma for walking out of a restaurant without paying.In my defense, it was cause their food sucked and their service was corpse-like. I shall not reveal the name in case the grumpy witchdoctor looking manager comes looking for me. It is one of Melbourne's most awarded cheap eats restaurant ;) avoid it ppl.

OMG, wat is wrong with me seriously. I've been so trying to be this Wise old HAG!

okay I'll post up these pics that have been stuck in my comp FOREVER! lol.
These are the Shidio Chinese New Year pics 09. I know I'm like such a chibai for keeping it forever.

Sorry but I've been so busy for this whole year. I just forgotten about it.

Aiya the rest is in facebook la. sien. hate uploading.

Have you seen the movie?He's Just not that into you has a very valuable, albeit, hard lesson for boys and girls alike.

The thing is, many of us are taught by the Disney fairy tales and commercial Media to believe in fairy tales and to keep hoping.

The problem comes when we are faced with issues and challenges, yet still expect the best to always come out of it. A happy ending everytime.

The problem with that assumption is that we set ourselves up for disappointment. We are not always going to succeed when we aim for it. We will have to fail sometimes. More often than not.

For those like me, gifted with an active and powerful imagination, needs to take even more caution. I notice that I tend to 'rewrite' history in my memories, to make myself less upset. This is bad when you are in a fight with someone, and you look at it as if you're completely right and they are completely wrong. creating a warped vision of the situation.

"We Don't see Things as they are, We see Things as We are." - philosopher/someone wise

I noticed this pattern in my wifey (girl bestie). The situation she's in, is created when there is no other visible options around. When one person has only this other single person to depend on, That other person then takes on a higher than appropriate position in their lives. Creating a fantasy to drown in.

Finally, an important lesson, is we should learn to take responsibility.

Responsibility = Response Ability. The ability to choose your own response in any situation.

We humans have the gift to choose our own reactions; Animals don't. The problem is sometimes that it is so much easier to blame someone else for how we feel. E.G

"I hate him! he makes me feel sad all the time."; " If only she'll stop saying I'm fat, I'll feel prettier." ; "Why can't someone just fall in love with me, and then my life will be perfect"

The pattern with all of these statements, is irresponsibility. Each is saying that they're happiness lies in the hands of someone else rather than themselves. Each gives power to others, whether it is a loved one, a friend or even, an Enemy!


I'm not saying it is easy. I find it very hard myself, to take responsibility and take the initiative to change myself. It leaves you no one to blame.

So stand up my friends. Take your rightful feelings into your own hands.

booo. I lost a job that I was supposed to have done in August.

I was supposed to have designed the posters for Eve's Merdeka night. But since Lleufer's gone back to Malaysia, the job kinda went with him.

Oh well, it's just a ride , just a ride, sometimes you're up, sometimes you're down.  (Jem- Just a ride)

So I might as well share my poster layouts I had in mind and get some critiques.

Keep in mind that I was not given any info except that it has a cocktail party theme and it is for Merdeka night, meaning Malaysian motives are necessary.

My first one is called Cocktails & Bars (bars as in bars and lines)
 Finally I simply thought of communicating a simple idea. Come here for drinks. Since the club earns alot from the bar tab. I tried to do a typical oak-wood bar top, decked with cocktails. The logo of the club would be placed on the bar front and the words on top.

Unfortunately. My mom and my GRANDaunt are my biggest email spammers as well as the most active email users. (thank god not facebook, although they have it but have not mastered it)
My mother forwarded me this email just yesterday.

FW: Racism - Oprah show & British Airways..‏

1) I'm sure many of you watched the recent taping of the Oprah Winfrey

Show where her guest was Tommy Hilfiger. On the show, she asked him if
the statements about race he was accused of saying were true.
Statements like'...'If I'd known African-Americans, Hispanics, Jewish
and Asians would buy my clothes, I WOULD NOT have made them so nice. I wish these people would *NOT* buy my clothes, as they are made for upper class white people'

His answer to Oprah was a simple 'YES'.
Where after she immediately asked him to leave her show.

My suggestion? Don't buy your next shirt or perfume from Tommy Hilfiger.
Let's give him what he asked for. Let's not buy his clothes, let's put
Him in a financial state where he himself will not be able to afford the
ridiculous prices he puts on his clothes. BOYCOTT.
PLEASE SEND THIS MESSAGE TO ANYONE YOU KNOW.

seriously, sometimes I think my mom and the aunties just have too much free time. How does boycotting a fashion empire fight discrimination when you are technically discriminating against someone else.

PLUS, this chain email has been around forever. I finally Tu-Lan so I searched Youtube for proof.


This is What I found.
CLICK HERE FOR OPRAH AND TOMMY HILFIGER INTERVIEW


See people. Such a load of rubbish is being circulated. Put it to rest already!

Chibai Jon la, made me addicted to this songs.






9 girl groups. who knew it would work?

Apparently there's an Uzbekistan version for Tell Me Your Wish. Just proves that copies are not always successful.

Bridge Partners or Self made family?

All I can say is, I'm loving them and Skype Conferences. The funny thing about Skype conferences is that it only gets engaging when there are more than 2 ppl in the conference. Or It might just be me.

So for now,it feels like Self-Made family.

I'm pretty lost with my project works and financial situation, which in turn make me not wanna go out at all. So I'm just placing myself under house arrest and try to be productive too.

So I have been working on becoming connected online, raising my online presence. I plan to create a drag queen persona to create hype, scandalousness and gossip material, these things get passed around alot.

plus I believe I have the skills to make it work.

Don't believe me? Fine I'll prove it.

Oh My Goddess! I know I'm so wonderfully gifted and smart and funny and should be crowned the next pharaoh of Egypt.... ..wait those are not crowns!

I will be tudung-ed / Head-scarfed / snake hooded as the next Pharaoh! yay!.

I just got myspace! and it is not that bad, feels like a cross between blogs and facebook. Will let you know more, PS subscribe to my Twitter feed! EX-Oh-EX-Oh! cacatgirl.